That Girl

 My God. The Heat! Send help! Ok, I spent 12 hours total trying to design a vampire. I don’t want a Dracula vampire. I want one that feels like Keifer Sutherland in Lost Boys, I want him to have a come hither face. To capture that look in artwork is frying my brain. Started with a duster, because if there is anything sexy in a man, a duster is it, which is maybe the one good thing about Texas. Men wear them… red liner in the duster but then… no. More modern. More old money. More into tech. Stands out in a crowd but because of the feeling he conjures up. Darkness.  I can’t nail him down, so to speak. I’m just not getting THE ONE. There’s no gut feeling. I have to have that, THIS! Feeling or I don’t want it with my name on it, literally.  Then I’ve spent 20 hours all totaled on making a Pinterest page that will link to my Etsy store. This will churn search engine results with photos and links. I had to put it down a few times. But, I’m competitive as hell so I will not let ...

 I’m halfway through a post so it will be soon. I’ve just been super busy. Like BUSY.  I made four shirts just today!  Miss you guys.  BRB ME

 It is too hot for humans here. It’s been weeks of 105-117 degree heat. I went swimming tonight after 6pm for the first time in a week ( the reason is coming up) and even though the pool was in the shade by then, the water feels…. Thick. Super hot, like, cooking me. I did get to swim for about an hour but, nah, man. So, remember this because two weeks from now when the nights start getting into the 70’s the water will start cooling off and then it will get to be 90’s during the day and 50-60 degrees at night then the water will be too cold… hear me out, I just write that when it’s 90 degrees out, it’s too cold to swim… this is from someone who grew up when the max heat in the summer was like 90 degrees. Did I only swim in cold pools? I remember a night at a boys parent’s house where we were skinning dipping. Didn’t feel cold at all… So, why haven’t I gone swimming… well, I’ve mentioned this before, there’s a tanning pad at the very front of the pool. Then along the length of the po...

 No fucking way!!!! Yes, it’s true…. I’ve been accepted by Amazon to make and sell adult coloring books through Amazon!!!!  No, not THAT kind of adult! Books for adults to color AND to create and sell journals and date planners!!!! Bonus, I’m selling shirts bitches!!! I’ve even done two bespoke shirts!!! They’re popular! MY ART IS POPULAR!!! I really could just cry!! The best part, for both the shirts and books, I design them and choose things like shirt types ( 100% American grow cotton, pre-shrunk, hand-dyed btw!)  Then I’m done. The creation and distribution is done by the company I hire. My shirts ship from Florida!  I bought samples of the shirts and they are gorgeous! I’ve been wearing them out and about and I love that the back has my company name on it.  I’m proud of myself. 😊😎 Here’s where I’m a Scottish warrior….  A short time  ago my anxiety was spinning out and I just kept having this thought that I needed to get a lawyer to send my aunt ...

 Let’s do Q&A since they are piling up… 1) I live in Spokane and my step dad lost some property in the fires. Fire scares me! Are your friends or family ok? Scares me too!!! I’m so sorry about your stepdad’s loss. I own property in Spokane County, got it from my dad. My stepsister called to tell me that we’re all good. She has a home on the property next to me and her mom, my dad’s wife, has property next to mine too, that was my dad’s house. I can’t imaging moving onto it, I mean like… Just don’t want to live in Washington again, it would feel like a step backwards, It took a lot to leave and be free, I know, weird… Anyway!!!! Regardless, I’d be heartbroken if it burned. My dad was so proud to have that land that they could leave to me, my stepsister and one stepbrother. One stepbrother got like a buck and my brother did too. Which, for both of them, was a good call! I think he wanted like a compound and as much as I actually do like my step siblings that sounds like a nightma...

First…..  How are my Spokane friends? I’m worried about you. The fires are all over the national news. My kid’s friend lost his pet because of the fires, the smoke killed it. We had two huge fires in the area I grew up in and I remember how terrifying it was. Please let me know how you are, please!  I wrote the next part yesterday. Why doesn’t a boy tell me anything when I open up most of my life? A grandchild on the way? My heart stopped. If I’m honest, when I’d heard that you’d had your first child my heart stopped too. What is it? The “could have been” the “what if,” the “if only”….grabs ahold of my heart. There is a love he has not felt. You think you love a woman, then you look into your children’s eyes and think that that is the peak of love. That that has opened your heart in ways one thought wasn’t possible. That their heart could not expand any further. Then, you look down into the eyes of a grandchild and the love almost hurts. This child is part of you. The thought ...