That Girl

I have something that I’m going to write about. It’s a tough health concern about my Mi-ya. I’m processing so come back for that….. I know it sucks to post that but my tism or anxiety makes me need to get it off my chest.  My anxiety is a panic attack storm right now but much of it is because I’m working soooo hard on buying, making, photographing items and designing my shop. It’s a good feeling but my body can’t tell the difference between THIS IS SO FUCKING COOL AND FUN!!!! And IM SITTING IM A CANOE BEING ATTACKED BY SHARKS!!!  But, add in my lovely girl’s health scare. It’s deeply disturbing.  Also, weirdness, I’m having nightmares every night. I even had a night terror and I haven’t had one of those for a long time. In my dreams, my brother is hunting me down, horrific weapons, to kill me. It’s very weird and very unusual. Like, where would this come from?! I even take medication to stop that from happening!  But! I’m designing t-shirts!!! I can’t put them on ins...

 Got a call last night from one of my very best friends. Let me tell you about her first, I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned her on here before. Her name is Heather. We met when I was 22 and she was 18. Her and Chad worked together at a hotel downtown. She was in his friend group and he moved in with me when I bought my house. Before that he and I lived at the old guys house. Old guy’s son Darrin moved in with me too.  She came with the package. Beautiful curly brown hair, freckles, the greenest eyes you’ve ever seen. She’d “dated” Chad.  ( hard for me to not call him by his last name because that’s what he always went by but we don’t need snoopy snoops snooping him up!) I met her the night she called the house at 2am to ask Chad to bail her out of jail. Everyone knew that Chad and I had a “thing” but it was so informal that we didn’t even share a bedroom. It was great. My heart had taken a beating and this was warm and cozy. No stress. No expectations. No unrequited lov...

 I’m so busy!!! I’m completely revamping my Etsy store. I’ll be removing some items, I’ve added sections so it’s easy to find exactly what you’re looking for and it’s a lot darker in feel… well, it will be after I get 150 items into their new section. I made a new banner today but I need to tweak it a little to include “ find the beauty in the darkness” I’ve been curating a ton of new items that will be a perfect fit for the vibe. I’ll still have most of my other jewelry for bread and butter pieces plus I have $3500 in antique china that was my great grandmother’s. And just bought another full 12 setting plus serving bowls for $85 but it’s worth about $3000 for it. These are going to take me ages to stage and photograph them because I think that I’ll be piecing them out. It would be hundreds of dollars to ship entire 12 settings plus all the serving and gravy dishes. People would know that but to wrap and ensure that something so delicate gets there in one piece is VERY difficult i...

 I’ve been surprised by so many moments of simple joys lately. I love that so much.  Had a pool party here this week and we won a prize :-) but the simple joy was talking to two little girls and their mom. Her and her husband own a pool business. They are so nice… one thing I like about living here is the rainbow of colors and religions and ethnicities, that it’s nice to interact with people villainize by our government and seeing that there are bad people in all groups but the majority are lovely. This is a middle eastern family, of which there are many here, and their daughters were pure joy. 7 and 9 years old but very small as their mother is very petite. Small little voices, bold, intelligent, curious, very interested in how many children we have and when they asked Josh who is his favorite friend is he replied that his sister is his favorite person. They loved that. When we were leaving they told Josh to tell his brother and sisters hi from them and to have fun with his f...

  This is graphic. And I mean, violently graphic. So if you want to check out that’s fine, thanks for stopping by and see you next post! So I saw this ad on YouTube that left me speechless and that’s where this begins… It was an ad for an umbrella. This guy was claiming that he made it and then he said… It’s like an abortion, if you need it you can use it and your weekend won’t be ruined. I mean….   But that’s not where this stops. I posted about this in the parenting group I’ve belonged to for 32 years. I asked what other people thought about it and...  This woman that I’ve hated for the entire 32 years, comments that she loved it. Thinks that abortion should be talked about like any other medical procedure. Ok, I’m good with that. I’m pro-choice. Ive had one, I’ve taken someone to get one. I bought my daughter plan B after she was assaulted.  I hate that women are made the villains in these discussions.  So I’m all for a more open conversation. But! Not every ...

 I typed out an entire post about what I’ve learned but I’m not sure that I’ll post it. I’m torn I will tell you guys the topic though so that you can email me to give me your thoughts. Ps: if you haven’t gotten an email giving you my new address you can reach me at my old email for another week.  I have learned that you can in fact get late term abortions , in the US, through 40 weeks BY CHOICE… not just medical emergencies. And I was educated on how it works and it’s…… You won’t be able to un-know it. So, think about that.  I’ll write asap. Me