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Memories flooding back…

 Seeing the photo of a boy and his dad where such an important part of my life took place took my breath away.  Can you even believe, Boy, that 40 years later we are still connected?  Next month will be 40 years since we got pregnant. I’ve spent every day since that photo wondering if I could walk into that building again and the truth is that I could not.  The ghosts of  86’ to ‘90 would pull me in. The feelings, the emotions, that I left in that building, I’d feel those so powerfully that I’d probably cry. That girl, I love that girl, those emotions are too strong for me to take them on again.  Then, the ghosts…. A boy’s mom, a boy’s brother, a boy’s grandparents, Maria, Jim.. so many… Then the energy from the people still swirling around, laughing, Robin, Shawna, Lars, Bob and Robbie… You. So much you in every single corner. Telling you to be steady because I’m gonna jump on your back, hours spent watching you play pool while it was soooo obvious that I ...
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It’s been a week

 First… I have an ear infection and in case you, like myself, haven’t experienced this awesome 10+ pain in the sixth circle of hell, since you were a child, I have given it a single star review on Yelp. I wouldn’t have even given a one if it hadn’t come with a migraine, I mean, it is a two for so…. Thanks. Do not recommend. Next. I’m also dancing with depression. A slow, dark, overwhelming wave of black water. This is always a bad month for me. The anniversary of my mother dying, my dad’s birthday, the birthday of my granddaughter Amelia who turned 8 and I last saw her at 2.5 years old. Swimming slows down, although, since we’re under the HEAT DOME of death, that’s helped out a bit. This is my favorite time of year but it also tends to come with depression that I can’t shake. And it’s the time of year that my asthma kicks into overdrive and last year had me in the hospital for 19 days from pneumonia that was trying to kill me. I’ve started breathing treatments already but my voice ...
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I guess it’s been a minute.

 How is everyone doing? Our first fake fall is over and we’re back to heat warnings. One down, three more to go!I wore jeans a couple of days ago… it was 101 feels like 105. I WORE JEANS. That’s it! That is one step too fucking far! Wore linen pants yesterday and burnt my thigh with the seatbelt. Took me back to Arizona days and guess what, I haven’t missed it. Today I wore my SEAHAWKS jersey and bike shorts. I don’t know what my husband was thinking when he bought this jersey for me but he bought me a men’s tall. It is literally a dress on me. I just wore the shorts for just in case I needed to bend over.  Let me tell you something… Seahawks play Wednesday, the first game of the season, which is why I wore a shirt that makes me look like I’m five wearing my daddy’s shirt… The outrage from the Cowboy’s fans was palpable! The mean mugging, the comments!! Actually comments telling me that Hawks suck. I joked to the one douche and said … Listen if you were watching the last time ...
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DID YOU SEE IT?!!!!

 Omg!!! I placed a memory up for sale on Etsy!!! A candle named : 1986 Scent: buttercream, vanilla and bourbon  Photos : one with the candle in headlights because of long drives               One with me hanging out the window of a red car holding the candle because of long nights.  The car always had a vanilla air freshener hanging.  I literally cried because I love it so much. In fact, I love it so much that I bought one!! Buy it, Boy. Please. Give it as a gift if you must. Hold it. Smell it. Remember.   Housewarming gift. 🥰 My baby boy turned 24 this week. We were talking about our 24 year of life and I have to tell you all this first… When I was … 22? Before I bought my house, my oldest son’s father came to meet him. If you’ve been here a long time you might remember that we went to California afterwards and I ended up standing next to a gravel driveway with a Camaro pealing out, kicking up rocks at me as he drove off...
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Omg omg omg!!

 Do you know what I absolutely love? Candles! Nice candles. I am not a flowery candle person, nor do I like scents with clover and back to flowers, I can’t stand rose scents, I like a mellow, what’s sometime referred to as “old library” scents… tobacco, vanilla, marshmallow, smoky, dark berry etc… I own A LOT of candles and because I live, literally, next to bath and body works, I like to get darker seasonal scents.  Why am I telling you this? Well! Let me tell you! I made my first candle. I picked a candle maker, mixed my scents, blackberry and vanilla, chose my wax, coconut and apricot wax, 100% cotton wick, amber reusable jar, it’s made in the USA. Very high quality. I won’t sell cheap shit. My shirts are so soft and well made, hand died, pre-shrunk etc… Because I’m making a BRAND and Dollar Store is NOT IT. Rich, creamy, thoughtful, I want an experience. With whatever the product is. I have my very first candle up on Etsy!!!! I fucking cried!!  And guess what… no gues...
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Still in hell….

 My God. The Heat! Send help! Ok, I spent 12 hours total trying to design a vampire. I don’t want a Dracula vampire. I want one that feels like Keifer Sutherland in Lost Boys, I want him to have a come hither face. To capture that look in artwork is frying my brain. Started with a duster, because if there is anything sexy in a man, a duster is it, which is maybe the one good thing about Texas. Men wear them… red liner in the duster but then… no. More modern. More old money. More into tech. Stands out in a crowd but because of the feeling he conjures up. Darkness.  I can’t nail him down, so to speak. I’m just not getting THE ONE. There’s no gut feeling. I have to have that, THIS! Feeling or I don’t want it with my name on it, literally.  Then I’ve spent 20 hours all totaled on making a Pinterest page that will link to my Etsy store. This will churn search engine results with photos and links. I had to put it down a few times. But, I’m competitive as hell so I will not let ...
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I’m here

 I’m halfway through a post so it will be soon. I’ve just been super busy. Like BUSY.  I made four shirts just today!  Miss you guys.  BRB ME
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