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When your world shifts….

 This is going to be one of the most, if not the most, personal thing I’ve ever written which is pretty hard to do…. I’m writing to mark this time, before and after, I use this as a diary and a way to work through all the things. I can look back almost 24 years ago and read when I called Joshua “ Wee one” in my blogs.  He’s 23 years old. He’s not like my other kids. He’s the most open hearted, kind, Emotionally intelligent, loyal, protective, big brown eyed beauty who radiates a calm strength, always saying “I love you” and he literally thanks us for his meals. The gratefulness this child has is inspiring. He’s on the autism spectrum and aren’t we all? And I love him with the intensity of a thousand suns. This is the child that God told me that I was going to have. We knew from day one that he had a purpose for our lives and I believe that that purpose was a calm lake in a sea of pain.  This week he sat next to me at my desk and asked if we could talk. He was shaking so b...
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My husband roofied me!

 So let me fill you in on our little trip… A grand total of 43 hours in our truck.  I had a total of seven hours of sleep in the three days before we left and was feeling pretty off. Major panic attack territory. My husband had gotten four hours of sleep and went to work. I called him at like, 2:30 and asked if we could just go since sleep was not going to happen.  We got all packed up and ready to go and for the first of EIGHT times, I lost my AirPods. I finally gave up but found them 18 hours later… in my purse(?) I always take multiple earbuds and headphones so it was all good. At around 9 hours I fell asleep for an hour. Two hours later we stopped to sleep for 90 minutes.  We checked into the hotel around 12:00. Went to lunch in the hotel and went back up to the room. I took a HOT shower because right before we left for the trip I had jumped up from my desk chair, tripped on my pant leg and went horizontal. Every bone in my body felt like I’d been hit by a truck....
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I’m in love!

 You guys!!! I have sooo much to tell you. Our little trip was the best! From our kickass hotel to the food and coffee to the most beautiful mountains I’ve ever seen.  The airport was a bummer, I cried, because all of the creepy artwork is on storage because of construction. The Stanley hotel is fucking stunning. It’s in the mountains and I cried because of the beauty! We went to Columbine High School. I remember the day of the shooting. I was driving from my house to Fred Myers(sp?) when the news came over the radio. That shooting started it all. The school still looks the exact same with the exception of the color of the letters in its name. I got perfectly lined up photos from the ones online from that day. It’s stuck in time. It feels desperately heavy and at the same time the area is a sports center so there’s hundreds of people and children and joggers. We went to the memorial. I cried.  We’re starting to make plans to move to Denver. I felt the weight lift off my s...
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Here’s where I’m crazy….

 I’m so excited about my SPOOKY little vacation!!! In the agenda: Denver airport, I hope you’ve looked a little bit at the weird as hell art in the airport. Then we are also going to The Stanley Hotel which is the hotel that The Shining was based on….. then we’ll be choosing another “Haunted Hotel” in Downtown Denver. All these will be videos on my channel. I’ll be FaceTiming with ROBB because these are his dream places to go.  I’m so stoked about this that I can’t sleep. The fun thing my body does is that it doesn’t tell the difference between adrenaline and endorphins. It’s all just “ HOLY FUCK! THERE’S A BEAR…. AND A SERIAL KILLER AND A FIRE!!! So I’ve been having massive panic attacks. It’s been that way since I was in my 20’s. Good times!!!! My YM is coming over Thursday and spending the night so they can get to the airport quicker. I haven’t seen her in years. Joy. That’s what I’m feeling!!!  I’m sure I’ll post photos on IG.  Also, apparently my oldest daughter...
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It’s 2:30 am so it will be quick

 Last night I had a really bad dream about a Boy. I woke up literally shaking. Is there a boy out there? I’m feeling worried and can’t shake it. Sent a message on social media but  deleted it. Post a pic? I’ll be in Colorado in four days… well, actually we’ll be driving in four days. I have jewelry to wrap up for my YM and her best friend because her and Josh are flying in the next day. I’m so stupid excited about going to the Denver Airport. Years ago me, Robb and the oldest son did a fantastic podcast on the airport and Ym’s ex was my producer, and when uploading it to my channel he lost it. Ugh! My brain cannot handle the Epstein info coming out. I want to write about it but I don’t even know where to start. It’s incomprehensible. The way my brain has been trained is to go “ HOLY SHIT!!! Put it in the box!!!!!” The rage it brings up, the grief for those poor girls…. STOP SAYING YOUNG WOMEN! many of these girls were children. STOP SAYING…. ASSAULT….. it’s RAPE! That’s it for...
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Super fast…

 I forgot to post before I went to bed!!!  I wish my dad could have watched the Superbowl. The game wasn’t great but, that’s ok!! I haven’t bought a Seahawks jersey since the last time they won so I got online and grabbed one before they sold out. Squee!!!!!!!! Im sorry that I haven’t been around. I got a big order for necklaces and matching bracelets. If that works out then I can add matching earrings. ANYWAY……. It’s after 3am and I’m headed back to bed I’ll be back soon!  Me
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Update on my last post!

 We survived the ice storm of 2026! In fact, it was beautiful! Soooo cold! Which I love!! Lovely lovely tap snuggly and warm and time stops here during a winter storm. Everything is closed and if you’ve lived here you know that if a storm is predicted you had better go to a store and fight for things to keep you fed, watered, well taken care of, because this place goes fucking nut job! I loved the closed down thing. We live off a major freeway that I rarely hear… I thought… but with no cars driving, all the shops on the island closed, no restaurants…. The quiet was like brain floss. I’d open my balcony door a tiny bit, open all the blinds so I could see the snow wherever I was and burry myself in jewelry making. I finished up the Zumba class bracelets, and was starting Spring and Summer jewelry. I don’t know if I’m going to continue my Etsy store because I’m getting almost all my orders from word of mouth… but, I guess I need a landing place for my jewelry to be seen. I lose money ...
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