That Girl

 I’m halfway through a post so it will be soon. I’ve just been super busy. Like BUSY.  I made four shirts just today!  Miss you guys.  BRB ME

 It is too hot for humans here. It’s been weeks of 105-117 degree heat. I went swimming tonight after 6pm for the first time in a week ( the reason is coming up) and even though the pool was in the shade by then, the water feels…. Thick. Super hot, like, cooking me. I did get to swim for about an hour but, nah, man. So, remember this because two weeks from now when the nights start getting into the 70’s the water will start cooling off and then it will get to be 90’s during the day and 50-60 degrees at night then the water will be too cold… hear me out, I just write that when it’s 90 degrees out, it’s too cold to swim… this is from someone who grew up when the max heat in the summer was like 90 degrees. Did I only swim in cold pools? I remember a night at a boys parent’s house where we were skinning dipping. Didn’t feel cold at all… So, why haven’t I gone swimming… well, I’ve mentioned this before, there’s a tanning pad at the very front of the pool. Then along the length of the po...

 No fucking way!!!! Yes, it’s true…. I’ve been accepted by Amazon to make and sell adult coloring books through Amazon!!!!  No, not THAT kind of adult! Books for adults to color AND to create and sell journals and date planners!!!! Bonus, I’m selling shirts bitches!!! I’ve even done two bespoke shirts!!! They’re popular! MY ART IS POPULAR!!! I really could just cry!! The best part, for both the shirts and books, I design them and choose things like shirt types ( 100% American grow cotton, pre-shrunk, hand-dyed btw!)  Then I’m done. The creation and distribution is done by the company I hire. My shirts ship from Florida!  I bought samples of the shirts and they are gorgeous! I’ve been wearing them out and about and I love that the back has my company name on it.  I’m proud of myself. 😊😎 Here’s where I’m a Scottish warrior….  A short time  ago my anxiety was spinning out and I just kept having this thought that I needed to get a lawyer to send my aunt ...

 Let’s do Q&A since they are piling up… 1) I live in Spokane and my step dad lost some property in the fires. Fire scares me! Are your friends or family ok? Scares me too!!! I’m so sorry about your stepdad’s loss. I own property in Spokane County, got it from my dad. My stepsister called to tell me that we’re all good. She has a home on the property next to me and her mom, my dad’s wife, has property next to mine too, that was my dad’s house. I can’t imaging moving onto it, I mean like… Just don’t want to live in Washington again, it would feel like a step backwards, It took a lot to leave and be free, I know, weird… Anyway!!!! Regardless, I’d be heartbroken if it burned. My dad was so proud to have that land that they could leave to me, my stepsister and one stepbrother. One stepbrother got like a buck and my brother did too. Which, for both of them, was a good call! I think he wanted like a compound and as much as I actually do like my step siblings that sounds like a nightma...

First…..  How are my Spokane friends? I’m worried about you. The fires are all over the national news. My kid’s friend lost his pet because of the fires, the smoke killed it. We had two huge fires in the area I grew up in and I remember how terrifying it was. Please let me know how you are, please!  I wrote the next part yesterday. Why doesn’t a boy tell me anything when I open up most of my life? A grandchild on the way? My heart stopped. If I’m honest, when I’d heard that you’d had your first child my heart stopped too. What is it? The “could have been” the “what if,” the “if only”….grabs ahold of my heart. There is a love he has not felt. You think you love a woman, then you look into your children’s eyes and think that that is the peak of love. That that has opened your heart in ways one thought wasn’t possible. That their heart could not expand any further. Then, you look down into the eyes of a grandchild and the love almost hurts. This child is part of you. The thought ...

 Went swimming, obviously, then floated around for a few minutes on our hammock floaty thing, then swam, then had to get the hell out after 2 hrs because it was only 111 degrees and I literally felt my skin sizzle…. So I didn’t run up bleachers, I didn’t high jump, I didn’t fight anyone up here in these streets, just swimmy, float, swimmy, get the fuck out. I’m walking up the stairs that lead out of the pool and suddenly I can’t walk on my left foot. Hmmm, that’s weird, take a step, pain shoots up through my ankle to my calf…. That was yesterday. Can I walk on it now? No. Also my left pointer finger is swollen and bruised…( no, that’s not where nail girl cut me) just… can’t move it. Same type of pain though. How in the hell did I get injured to the point of being unable to put pressure on my ankle or type with my left hand? Is that the age I am now? Oh shit! I coughed and my back blew out, old?  Uh oh! I sneezed and broke my collarbone! I have some tea! Wanna hear it? Ok, cool...