You’ll hate me….

I have something that I’m going to write about. It’s a tough health concern about my Mi-ya. I’m processing so come back for that….. I know it sucks to post that but my tism or anxiety makes me need to get it off my chest. 


My anxiety is a panic attack storm right now but much of it is because I’m working soooo hard on buying, making, photographing items and designing my shop. It’s a good feeling but my body can’t tell the difference between THIS IS SO FUCKING COOL AND FUN!!!! And IM SITTING IM A CANOE BEING ATTACKED BY SHARKS!!! 

But, add in my lovely girl’s health scare. It’s deeply disturbing. 

Also, weirdness, I’m having nightmares every night. I even had a night terror and I haven’t had one of those for a long time. In my dreams, my brother is hunting me down, horrific weapons, to kill me. It’s very weird and very unusual. Like, where would this come from?! I even take medication to stop that from happening! 

But! I’m designing t-shirts!!! I can’t put them on instagram because I’m not selling them yet and I don’t want any design stolen AND this stupid blog won’t let me upload pics from my phone. It wants me to go through Google?! I want to share some of them so badly!!!!! I won’t send them in a message either because I feel like that’s for “emergency” you know? But, if anyone gets an itch to see them they could always let me know 🥰

You know what I am? An artist. Like, I even get paid for my art. It makes me feel proud of myself. My Jo-sh is a fantastic photographer and sketches beautiful sketches. The oldest son has no artistic ability, neither do my girls, at least they haven’t found any yet. I’m doing my best work selling through word of mouth. While I love that it’s difficult to get good stats on websites! I’m working on finding my happy medium. 

It’s been raining all week. Temps in the 80’s. Very weird for July but I’ll take it!!! 

This weekend husband is uploading his cover letter and resume so we can try to move to Colorado. I’m excited and scared!! Change is difficult for me, probably the tism. But I also love a good adventure!! Whatever it’s supposed to be will be. 

I have to run. 

Song: Your Love by The Outfield….. I went for decades not realizing what this song is about! 😂 I love it.

Luv you,

Me

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