Ok, Just Kill Me.

 I’m not going to be approved for my surgery. Why? Oh! Because my doctor TORE my urethra doing that test I had done and it needs to heal first. Did I mention that it feels like there’s glass inside me? Love it!

Boy, Forgot to mention the pic. It’s so nice to see pics again. Warms my heart. Who is the other girl? 

Have you all watch the Sean Combs documentary? Jesus H Christ!!! The fucking icks I get from this guy. It wouldn’t be the worst thing if someone beat and dragged him around like he does to women, I mean, I’d watch it…. A few times. Robb loves Pac so I had him watch it. He’s not even from this country and he’s all “WEST COAST!”😁 

We take trivia cards when we go out to eat and did on Thanksgiving. It’s fun and starts new conversations. So Josh was reading the cards and these were True or False questions and I was just rocking that shit! ( Watch documentaries, kids! You’ll kick ass in trivia) one of the first questions was asking if mountain chickens are biologically related to farm chickens, JD says yes. I said no and explained that mountain chickens are actually huge frogs that the hillbillies eat. Jd laughed like I had lost my nut. Josh put the card down and said “ This is bullshit. You’ve read these!” Nope! Learned that from a documentary!! Out of thirty questions I got 28 right. The ones I missed has to do with Space and while my husband and two of my children know all of the things about space, I just do not care, so the husband got those. There is nothing better than being competitive and kicking someone’s ass!!! Omg I love to compete!! That’s how I didn’t die from that allergic reaction. Even unconscious there’s a competitive me saying.. “ Not today, Bitch, not today!!”

Song…My husband says this was me when we met and we even had a conversation so similar to this. I told him that he should just run. That I wasn’t worth it and that I was too broken. I told him that I wasn’t going to date ANYONE. 

Save Me by Jelly Roll …….God, it’s so good. Turns out that I was right at that moment but it wasn’t going to BE ME.  Or BEAT Me. I’m good. I like me. 

Do you all like yourselves? Sit with that. It’s a deep question. Dig in.

Me, looking at the moon.🌙 


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