Memories…

 I had the best day Wednesday. We played hooky and we went to the Springs. It was about 60 degrees out which makes the heated pools 100% better than when it’s 100 degrees out. It started getting dark at 4:30 because it was really cloudy. 

Then by 6:30…The calming pool lights, blue, green. The twinkle lights, the barely raining mist falling on my face, the steam floating over every surface leaving a feeling of both dread and mystery, covering the surface like a dreamy blanket, swimming in the large World Pool, feels magical like a mermaid floating gently and gracefully, the temperature of the perfect bath , the music drifting over me, my mind drifts off and the pool lights remind me of a night when a boy had me at his house, parents gone, skinny dipping in the quiet night, skin on skin, I drift back to there, my tummy feels like butterflies my heart fluttering, my mind feeling animal like in its passion wanting to come together as one in the place where only he could take me. Alone in the giant pool I escaped to those places and times, airport, golf course, wine coolers, speakers next to my ears, the parents fluffy cozy bed, feels like love, feels like being naughty, feels like I wished the night would never end. All those nights, running my fingers over the boy’s body….. Dreamy. 

The soothing noise of the waterfall brings me out of my hidden place and it’s still perfection all around me. No harsh re-entry in to the now. Soft, misty, cloud like landing. Perfection.

Song: High Enough by Damn Yankees… flashback!

See you in the moon

Tracylynn

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