1:30am!

 Don’t worry, I’ll keep time for you all.

I had a psychiatrist appointment today and I swear to you, this guy is so fucking quirky that he makes me laugh… AT HIM. Out of 35 minutes today we spent 25 minutes talking about his…. DEPRESSION! And how he has two cats( you might remember) and he’s allergic to his cats so he won’t allow them into his bedroom…. So he thinks they SPY on him under the bedroom door. Which, they probably do. They’re cats, curiosity killed the fat, not the dog, which I explain to him and he thinks they might be bipolar. 😂😂 I told him that I could come over and he says … Oh! we could be depressed together and he was all…. OMG! I’d love that! Do you like cats? To which I replied that I grew up with cats. I love cats, so he says you can hold a cat, I’ll hold a cat and we’ll watch a movie! It’s so fucking calming! And in all seriousness, if I didn’t laugh it off, I think he’d do it! But it’s like the MOST unprofessional thing besides sleeping with your doctor , that he could do, even so, we could be good friends. It’s too bad we met this way. Jd hates cats and youngest child I highly allergic so a weekly cat cuddle session would be lovely. 

Man…. I came in here to tell you about these super realistic Deja Vu’s I’ve been having… like, it’s not that I feel like I’ve done it before, I feel like it’s SO FUCKING DEJA VU, that I feel like I’m actually THERE for like a split second. I can’t do anything to bring it back which sucks but these are really cool. Catch a smell and boom! I’m there and back. Feel a certain kind of skin, not just anybody and boom, I’m there and the best part is that the feeling comes with it so I get to feel that snippet of the feels. It’s never sad. It’s always moving in someway, happy, love, excitement and it’s mostly from my teens to my middle 30’s. It’s fantastic and maybe future me splurged on these tiny little time hops. Did that sound crazy as fuck? Yes, girl, you be crazy as fuck! Maybe as we age our brain sends out lost little bits accidentally. Also, I have the MOST vivid dreams and there’s certain parts that are in every dream and certain people too, in every dream and because I can control my dreams, true story, look it up, Buddhist monks spend most of their lives trying to do this to grow their spiritual knowledge and I’m over here like, Dude! I just do it! You go meditate though….anyway, I can control situations to improve or change them, it’s pretty cool. There is ALWAYS a boy and also his mother, which is strange, but she’s very upfront in my dreams. 

Ok, have to go. Took a pain pill and it’s kicking my ass.

Song…. Do you guys enjoy these? Let me know.

Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison ….. I’m a brown eyed girl… 😉🌙 

Me

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