That Girl

 I’ve been going to all the doctors appointments in the world. Got a result showing that my kidneys are failing, which turns out to be probably not accurate so I’ve gone in twice for new blood tests and then I went in for a chest x-ray. All trying to get released for surgery. I have to go to a cardiologist and an endocrinologist. All this trying to Jane it in the three weeks. That’s crazy! I’m getting my nails done today and for thanksgiving we’re going to Brio which we do every year. Our Christmas is a little messed up this year because the ICE show at the Gaylord isn’t one we want to see so I think we will be going to the Springs. It will be fun in the cold! Then the restaurant we go to at the Gaylord for Christmas isn’t having dinner this year, only a brunch. That doesn’t work for us so we’ll be going there for dinner on Christmas Eve, we usually got to The Cheesecake Factory but we’ve finally admitted that  we don’t like it there!! Then on Christmas we’ll be going to Del F...

 …… Here I am. In my last blog I hadn’t started ( listen if you're a person with a weak stomach then you need to skip further down because I’m about to get real REAL. Because women’s bodies can be pretty fucked up, ok. Like if you’re a dude in pain right now just STFU, because vaginas are basically ridiculous!) Let’s start down here… I hadn’t started crying from the pain of peeing straight up, undiluted blood with some kick ass clots and…. Bloody skin from…. I mean, my bladder? My urethra? And a weak later it’s still happening and I’m actually scared when I have to pee. So there. How’s that for some honesty, huh? Ya.  I saw my primary doctor and we did a urine test and guess what?! There’s blood in my urine? WTF?! Are you pulling my chain? I mean, I didn’t just fucking tell you that or anything….. Lord, just five fucking minutes of decent health, ok? OK?! And please help my doctor to access some more brain cells because she isn’t even funny and dumb with no sense of humor is l...

 I went to that horrible doctors appointment and maybe did maybe cry twice. I took an Uber there and then my husband met me and Josh at a burger joint so I could drown my emotions in a bacon burger. It’s less fun if there’s no bun, but, BACON, so….. The news is that I need four very serious surgeries and due to some issues I am getting them done at the same time, because if anyone likes pain more than me, I don’t know them…..I’m mostly worried that it will ruin Christmas for my husband and Joshua. I’ll be fine! It’s fine! Everything is fine! So, had an appointment with my psychiatrist and I swear, this guy, who must be in his early 30’s, is my guess, is exactly the stereotypical millennial. So we’re talking and suddenly he puts his finger up to his lips and whispers ( I have my AirPods in, but he still whispers)….Shhhhhh….. There’s someone behind you…” and it’s a video call so I can see me and behind me so I look at me and there’s no one there and he does it again…”Shhhhh….There’s ...

 I sold SIX PIECES of jewelry today! Go me!!  I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday to do one of the most humiliating tests ever!!!! It’s with a uro-Gyn. Ok, here we go…. So, they insert a catheter, pump water into your bladder and then you have this machine that videos and records how you pee! Then they put a catheter back in to see if you have any water left and THEN! A full gyn appointment and I have been skillfully avoiding this test for years but my time is up and it’s gonna be SUPER FUN! wish you could be there! It’s warm during the day here but literally freezing at night and I’m a happy camper!!! Flannel PJ’s , fuzzy socks!! Yes!  Have you put your Christmas decorations up yet? I’m doing it “late” this year and we are doing it next week. Happy me!!! I love a good Christmas tree and for the last three years we’ve been making ours! We make, basically , a tee-pee so we put the gifts inside the tree. It’s beautiful, unusual and fun. I have a psych appt to tell you a...

 Warning, you all might want to pass go on this one! A little fiery rant….. Hey. How’s it going? Is it cold where you are? It’s been in the low80’s but real fall is hitting this week and I’m stoked. Changed my closet out from spring/ summer to fall/ winter and I always pick up a few things throughout the year which I am always happily surprised to see as I just put it out of my mind. Then I donate some things to make up for the new things. I have pieces that I LOVE and they just hang around. Shoes switch out too and I must say, I freaking love shoes. I need meetings or something! But I do donate shoes too. Sometime I get a pair that I love and realistically I have nothing to wear them with, which is a pretty good trick. Being poor made me appreciate clothing. Buying clothing that lasts. We joke that I go shopping in my closet now but I appreciate every single thing, which is why I donate rather than throw away.  I’ve donated for decades now, always to a women and children’s fa...

 First of all. If you want to check out my new business Instagram page then here’s the link. https://www.instagram.com/isabella_maggie_designs?igsh=MXVlN2ttZnMyMnpwcQ%3D%3D&utm_source=qr I’m starting to add items on now. I got derailed for TEN HOURS Yesterday by rewriting all of my headlines and taglines for something like 90 items? Plus making a commissioned piece. Plus doing the photography…I’m not gonna lie. I was not having the best time but here’s what happened…. Long story short this man offers to help me to add in search words to my titles and tags. He shows me one that he would change, he does the entire thing. I went in and did ALL the rest, this one’s a snappy little learner and I also knew what was coming next…. He wants me to pay him to do it. Now, I’m good with a side hustle. Good for him. BUT, I’d already picked up how to do it so…. Felt a little bad but not bad enough to pay him to do the same thing I took four hours just doing….  So a week in the hospital a...

 I’ve been working my ass off in making a website and getting a business Instagram and creating and taking photos. This is gonna be the time of year that I need these things to come together. Perfect timing. I have more than 100 pieces up, both hand crafted and perfect vintage pieces that I’ve procured. I’m really having fun and it helps me through the tapering of my steroids which is a BITCH.  I’m good at this. I’m good at powering through. That makes me proud of myself.  I have some stuff to tell you all about some of the nurses, doctors and PT’s that are stunning! If you’re ever in the hospital, my advice is make these people your friends and you will have the deepest craziest conversations! It is THEE silver lining. Talk soon!! Me