Hola!

 I wrote an entire post about Robb but it turned out to sound….. very harsh, so I’ll try it again… and harsh might just be the way it stays. It was a harsh situation. It was me being hurt and I think we’ve all learned at least one thing about me by now, 23 years worth of blogs, I insist on feeling safe with you, no the general YOU you, but the you you are if I’m close to you. 

Wow, that was a crazy train of thought right there. I’m starting to agree with that whole autism thing…. 

Anyway! I want to know that you’ve got my back. You don’t lie to me…. I absolutely hate being lied to and especially the part where the liar thinks they’re so ingenious that you don’t know they’re lying. I always know the lie, I just mark it down in that score sheet I keep in my brain. I grew up with the greatest liar who ever lied. Now it’s like I’m a walking lie detector.


I want to know that my “ enemy” is your enemy. I do the same. You don’t like Linda? I don’t like Linda either. She’s the worst Linda that ever Linda’s.

And he hurt me badly. BADLY. 

I’ll try and write it up soon. I’m being seen about surgery Thursday. Yes, the last appointment was canceled and we went to the spa instead. I’m a bad girl. :-)

Also want to talk about religion and my current “ crisis of faith” as it would be called. My journey to find where I fit. 

That will be so much fun! 🫣😬

Ok, song. This is a true dance like no one is watching song, which I do. It’s grungy and fun and well, I like it.

AIN’T NO REST FOR THE WICKED by: Cage the Elephant.


I’ll get a slower nice sing next time

Me


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