Good ….

 Ok, so, a couple of things….


One! I have a daughter again. Crossing fingers and praying that it works out. 


Three months ago I got out of the hospital for what would be only two days. When I got home I immediately went to sleep and had a dream with my dad in it. We were just talking and I asked him if I should call her and he replied that I absolutely should call her. 


I woke up in a really rough emotional state. Couldn’t stop crying… And against the advice of Jd and Josh I called her, I was crying so hard I don’t know how she even understood me. She said she wasn’t prepared to have a conversation.


Ok, fine. I sent her a text about 6 wks later and asked if she was ready. No response.


I woke up Friday and knew that I had to call right then. Josh was adamant that I not call and then he said he felt something inside him say “ Let her call. It will be fine” so he told me that I should call.


She had a list ready of things to talk about and we spent over an hour just crying while talking. I just listened to her. I have a different view of some of the things on her list but I didn’t present them. I just listened. 


When we were done I told her that I love her and she said she loves me too… I have not heard that from her in over 3 years. 


We are going to have a relationship but I know that it needs to be slow, for her and for me. I need to tip my toe in and she does too. 


Jd called her the next day and it went well. 


We have a daughter again. 💕 


Now I can’t remember the second thing!!! Ugh!! I’ll get back to you when I remember!


Pretty Slowly by Benson Boone 

Luv, me

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