That Girl

 I’ll get back to my religious thing asap. I’ve been really busy. I haven’t even put up an Exit Light video in a hot minute and I’m also not feeling well. Sinus infection, you gotta love em.  Joshua is heading to Berkeley/San Francisco at 3am Saturday morning my husband is taking the three day weekend off plus he went with me today to an endocrinologist appointment. So I’ll try to get a post in this weekend. I’ve taken notes!!! It’s gonna be a novel. Brb!!!! Me!

 That’s what it is…. Got high last night. I rarely… I mean RARELY have anything to do with weed, certainly don’t smoke it. But, it’s a long story that probably shouldn’t be told and I got high. Here’s what I discovered. If you have the Disney + app you can watch short little videos where you’re “on” the ride….. RIGHT! Best combination ever!!!!! I hit Disneyland and Disney world HARD.  One time , YEARS ago I had to watch the weather channel to calm me down, see the reason I don’t hardly ever mess with weed is that unless I have someone to talk with or something to take my mind off stuff, well, I want to call the cops on myself. Ya. When I was a teenager I tried to open the truck door whilst my boyfriend was driving. Had sex while high once or twice and they go together. Twisting tricks….. Shhh that’s private.   18 months ago I was convinced that I was actually either 1) DEAD. Or 2) In a coma. I woke my husband up to tell him the news. “ Hey, are you alive or in my ima...

 Premarital sex is a sin. Ok…. Today we start on my journey through my “ crisis of faith” Here are some sins that my mother was warned about: It’s a sin to…. Wear pants Dance Swim with boys Wear makeup Smoke cigarettes  Drink alcohol  Attend a school dance… just in case Say the word “ hate” Hold hands Premarital sex Not pray after every sin all day long. Disrespect adults Be “ of the world” Listen to music  No movies at a theater  Cussing Etc….. basically be afraid all day long until you die. Sins that I was warned of…. Listening to music. Well, with the exception of Elvis and anything on AM radio. Pre-marital sex Smoking Drinking No movies Cussing Not to Pray for forgiveness all the days long. Say the word “hate” Now, at some point as a child it occurred to me that I could wear pants and swim and dance and eventually I could listen to music( 14 yrs old I think?) and go to movies ( my parents to me to Grease and then my mom took me to…. FAST TIMES AT RIDGEMONT H...

 I’m really trying to figure out how to get into the whole story about my deep diving into Christianity but, my God, it feels like it’s hard to know where to start and the different points I want to hit on….. I’m getting there… just hold on…. So, I couldn’t get myself to paint. Just had zero interest in it. I let my Etsy shop close , well it’s still technically open but it’s empty. I’ll be starting a new page for art.  What am I doing instead? Plenty! Writing, which is good but I can get supper bored. Look! It’s shiny! Swimming, a lot! Like about three hours per day. My skin tone looks like my dna has changed. Makes my eyes so green though!! Green in the summer and brown in the winter. And!!!!!! I’ve just finished my 50th piece of jewelry and I LOVE IT!!!! It’s super way more expensive than painting but I love to get lost in shiny glass beads or shiny stones and crystals!!! Basically, SHINY! I have bone beads too. They’re from Africa and that’s all we know about that. It’s sup...

Let’s answer some questions.. 1) Any news about your kiddos? I spoke with my YM recently, out of necessity. She and Josh are flying to Berkeley where her boyfriend attends University. But it won’t just be the three of them there will be the boyfriend’s two brothers, Joshua’s best friend, four other people, from all over the country, California, Colorado, Washington state, Texas, New Mexico, New York, New Jersey and Oregon. So they were trying to get everyone’s flights to coincide at least a little bit. They will all be meeting in San Francisco. They all stream together which will be a live event, obviously. It’s a a teams championship but they want to sight see too so I helped her line up some tickets for things like the aquarium, ghost tour, brewery tour etc and restaurant reservations. This will all be done over Joshua’s birthday so I helped organize something for that.  Anyway, it went fine. Basically like a business exchange but we did laugh about a lot of stuff like my apparen...

 I’ve been sitting in my hands trying to figure out how to start the religion conversation about how I came to deconstructing my life long beliefs that were drilled in so deeply that I didn’t feel like I even could question the dogma. Being raised in a Christian sect that now feels like a cult as I watch evangelicals hang paintings of Trump as Christ and build literal golden cows is alarming on so many levels that I feel hate, yes, hate towards the church that I knew as it has become the complete opposite of everything we were taught. “love they neighbor” “ The meek shall inherit the earth” “ Red and yellow. Black and white, they are precious in his sight” “ it’s harder for a rich man to enter through the eye of a needle than to get into heaven” etc… But that’s not what started this journey. My journey started when I was told that the earth is 6,000 years old and my child brain went “ hold on! But science says it’s millions of years old” to which my question was answered with “scie...

 Today is just gonna be brainless chit chat.  I promised that I’d talk about my perfumes. Now, I don’t have a ton but I have a good start 😉 I started loving perfumes about 18 months ago, maybe. I go through fazes of things and it’s been perfume… uh, and shoes. Just make it stop! Here’s what I have : 1) Juliette Has A Gun Not A Perfume: it’s so soft and beautiful! If you’re looking for something that throws off a lot of scent this wouldn’t be it. To me it’s like more for the wearer. It’s so good it will make you just want to smell yourself. 2) Imaginary Authors: Cape Heartache. It’s very “pine” scented which I though I might had but it warms down into a really beautiful sent that I actually combine with.. 3) Imaginary Authors: How To Say Bicycle In French. This is so good so soft and endearing and when mixed with Cape it smells like a brisk winters day and powder. It’s hard to explain but I literally go around smelling my wrists when I wear it. In fact, I like to spray my pill...